5/31/08 Two Seemingly Unrelated Items

The only thing I clearly remember wanting
to be when I grew up was Pat Benetar
in the Love is a Battlefield video.
Do you remember that video?
She left home and had to be very brave.


I see Cookie wrestling with a deep sadness
that I remember having as a child, too.
Like a sense of fleetingness or loss,
like a thinness of time, or a hyper-awareness
of mortality. The only thing I can say to him is
I'm sorry, sweetie. I used to feel that way.
Truth is, I still feel that way sometimes.